Half Empty. Half Full.

It was my first day since I moved in the morning shift. I need to adjust my daily routine, my body clock as well as my schedules. On the other hand, I'm back to a normal life - I work in the morning and I sleep at night. Anyway, the  past weeks for me were very crucial and cataclysmic. And I just want to share it with you…

Have you ever had the feeling that you were too pressured to choose from something you’re sure of and something you’re happy with?

You know what’s weird? It is when you already have that someone who holds your heart but still, you fall in love with another who just simply walked by. Just when you thought that you were happy and contented with that “special someone”, destiny decides to play a joke on you. You meet somebody who will make you think, “Wait a minute, I’m falling for this person” then, there’s the dilemma. Who will you choose: that someone who you’ve been for the longest time or that somebody who just came into your life, makes you smile and think “I might consider spending my life with you.”

Sometimes, someone comes along and makes you doubt your love to someone. They’re not better, they’re just different.

Medically speaking, a person’s heart beats twice in one cardiac cycle. Figuratively, it beats for itself and for another person. Maybe that’s why doctors claim that a third beat as abnormal. It is called arrhythmia… See? No space for third party.

Waiting for the right time may not always be the smart thing to do because sometimes, the wrong moment could be the most perfect of all.

When do you draw the line between LOVE and FRIENDSHIP? In friendship, we create LOVE. And in love, we risk FRIENDSHIP. It’s hard but I guess, sometimes, wanting more means losing everything. There’s no commitment involved, you’re uncertain of your role to her life, you cant expect her to be always there for you, you cant demand at all, you cant be jealous.

There is no “US”, just “YOU and ME” You can’t be sure of her feelings for you. And this will makes you wonder, where you are in the relationship or if there is any relationship at all? But why do others still settle for this kind of relationship? Just for fun? For “sweet moments”? Or for them to be with “somebody” while waiting for the “real thing”?

Maybe…

But if one gets cold, then that’s the end of everything. The relationship is false but surely, the pain is real. That’s the hardest part of being loved by someone, the uncertainty that it may stop, anytime. And even the hottest love has its coldest end.

Heartbreak is an odd kind of pain. Coz you’re not dying, you’re not even sick. For all the intents and purposes, you’re perfectly fine. Yet, inside, where your heart used to be, you hurt so much that you can’t breathe. You can’t sleep; you can’t stop the tears from falling. You may eat too much or you may not eat at all. Nonsmokers light up and nondrinkers find a bar. A broken heart is one of the world’s greatest equalizer. ‘Coz it can turn even the sweetest angel to a freaking evil.

It’s amazing how you continue to love someone you can’t have in the end. Maybe because trying to stay away would be painful, so you might as well take the risk coz either way, you’d get hurt anyway. Staying with someone you love even if you know its better letting go is like standing under the rain. It feels good but you know it’s going to make you sick.

Life is totally twisted, things change and shit happens. So, know what you really want and go for it. Choose what makes you happy today or die on sadness tomorrow… Sometimes in my life, I really have to decide whether I’m half full or half empty. It may appear the same but it doesn't feel the same.

I can always take care of myself. But still, I want to meet the person who can prove to me that I cant, alone...

"Just because it didn't last forever doesn't mean it wasn't worth it." ♥